What if... schmatif!

You've done it, I've done it (often) - guaranteed, we've all done it at some point.

Now where'd your mind go? Kidding. :) I am talking about playing the "what if" game.I often played the "what if" game.

What if we never moved from the small town I was born?
Would I still be living there?

What if my parents didn't get divorced?
Would I have grown up without developing insecurity "issues"?

What if I had completed my University degree?
What exactly would I be doing now? Would I have loved my job like I do now?

What if... what if... what if...
What would I be doing? Who would I be now?

So many hundreds of them - and somehow I've always ended up at the same conclusion. If everything had not happened as it did, this particular me I am now, would be vastly different. The people I have in my life now would most likely not be here. There would be other people around me that would be supporting the being I would have become. And quite frankly, I really like the people who are around now.

It's like theoretical time traveling, if you mess with history - it could be devastating to the present.

So, based on the conclusions from my games, I have come to a different conclusion. It's a waste of time for me to play that game, it won't change anything in my past, nor would I want to, now that I know how blessed I am right now because of it.

I know I probably have mentioned this before - but all is as it should be. I AM exactly where I'm supposed to be, exactly who I'm supposed to be. It's my life, the way I "chose" it and I am grateful for it all.

Once I realized this, I took stock. I am content with who I am right now, I am blessed beyond compare with beautiful people in my life, love, compassion and caring. I choose to not be anywhere else than where I am now. This is a really good place to be at. :)

Kinda makes me wonder why I even played that silly game so much in the first place!!!