"Healing your past hurts" - Meditation

This meditation worked very well for me, while I was specifically working through some painful childhood memories/experiences.

Once I started facing, accepting and integrating the painful experiences in my life, I started understanding a lot of my reactions better. I also realised in most of those cases what the Universe (and I) wanted/needed to learn. So a lot of situations that seem similar to the ones from my past that I have confronted are not affecting me adversely anymore or incapacitating me with fear and hurt.

It seems to me that I am now better equipped and more aware of how to “learn” what I need to learn from certain experiences.

You will need a quiet space, where you will not be interrupted. You may want to lay down, or if you prefer sitting up, that is good too. Your preference. _________________________________________________________________

Once you are settled and ready to begin, take two or three deep breaths to relax your body and quiet the mind. Feel your entire body melting away.

Focus on your breathing and use your imagination to visualise.

Continue breathing deeply, in through the nose and out through the mouth.

Now think of a situation/experience that has caused or still causes you emotional pain. Bring it back to life in your imagination. But see it play out on a movie screen. Focus your eyes on the screen and watch as it plays out, while you focus on your heartbeat. Feel the pain that it has caused you with every beat, and feel the freedom from pain in the pauses between the beats. It may be painful, but feel it, let it be so you can learn from it and let it merge with you.

Take a deep breath, drawing into your crown, the pink energy of Universal love. As the energy moves down from your crown, through your throat and towards your heart, allow that pink energy to swirl around your heart, and form an orb around your heart.

Keep drawing in enough pink energy to form a big, dense orb. Once you feel that your orb is strongly enough enforced. Look back at the screen where the experience it playing out.

Now as you breathe in, see that image dissolving from the screen and feel it being pulled in through your crown, moving down towards the orb. Draw it into the orb, where it mixes with the pink energy. The energy within the orb may change colour, that’s alright. It just means that it is being integrated with Universal love.

As this energy is swirling around in the orb, focus again on your heartbeat. And feel how with every beat, the painful beats begin subsiding and how the pain lessens, turning the energy in the orb darker.

Ask yourself: “What is it that I need to learn from this experience”, then listen quietly for the answer. Don’t strain to listen, if you are ready, you will clearly hear what you need to.

If you don’t hear anything, try to feel within your being if you can pick up the subtle answer. But don’t fret if you can’t. Your being will absorb it and make it know to you clearly at the appropriate time.

After about 4 breaths, whether you “heard” your answer or not, allow that orb to start moving slowly down your body - down through your solar plexus, your sacral and finally your base chakra. Watch as the orb continues it’s slow decent down to mother earth.

Feel, as you watch the orb dissolving into the ground, how the last vestiges of pain you are carrying, dissolves quietly along with the orb. Knowing that mother earth will transform that energy into what she needs to heal herself.

Now focus again for a few moments on your heartbeat. Feel how light, free and unencumbered your heart is beating.

Feel the space that you have now created within your being.

Keep breathing deeply as you keep feeling that space, that light feeling and the freedom. Commit this feeling to your memory - your mind, your heart and your being, so you may recall it any time during your day.

Then, once you have committed this feeling to your memory, visualise an orb filled with pure white light over your head. Feel it moving slowly down from your crown to your heart, where it encapsulates your heart – forming a protective barrier of light.

When you feel comfortable enough - start breathing in pure white light into your body. Keep breathing the white light into your body, so that it fills your entire body, every muscle, every pore and every cell from your head, to your fingertips and to your toes.

Feel yourself filled with light and healing.

When you are ready, slowly become aware of your surroundings and your body again. Take your time to come back to the present.