Hindsight is always 20/20

That’s how the saying goes. I find that it is true for me.

I find myself in a place, where my wheels are spinning, I am rearing to go, but the hand-break is still up. I am waiting for the final green light so I can start to move again.

I find it extremely difficult to feel stagnant, but I have also come to learn that these are the times when I integrate everything that I have learnt. It’s been a toughie, but I am getting better at it.

And in these moments that I am waiting for that final go ahead from the Universe, I find that there are a lot of challenges thrown in the mix, and I feel it’s like they are testing my resolve, my trust, my willingness and my commitment to my being. There's been a lot of stop, go, stop go, going on.

So yesterday, I was listening to this song, and the following verse just jumped out at me. I am taking it completely out of context from the rest of the song, but that’s just how I have always learnt.

“In the moment you will feel it, things will never be the same. It’s like standing on a mountain, by the clouds that bear the rain, you look back and you see clearly it was meant to be this way.” – In a heartbeat (Back to life album), Sandra

I know I am standing in that place just before the leap of faith, having hovered here for some time now. Between trust and fear, and what I have found is, when I take a good, hard look at the journey of my life, everything has happened precisely as it should have. The timing of life or course changing events has always been impeccable – I guess that is why the call it Divine Timing hey?

Considering the words from the song and looking at my experiences, if everything that has happened to me before, was meant to be exactly that way, why am I still finding it difficult to trust? Or is it a matter that I trust the Universe, but not myself?

Is it that I doubt my ability to “translate” the messages and omens the Universe is generously supplying along my path? I have a feeling that this is my self-imposed limitation - the thing that still keeps me back in that ‘little’ puddle of fear.

These are the truths I have found in these words. Yeah, sometimes, I am a slow learner, I stare myself blind at all the wrong things, but once something like the words of that song opens up a new view and I grasp what I must, I take off in hurry. :) I have a feeling this is what's about to happen...

So, now that I know what has been “wrong”, I can focus on changing it to what I want. Shifting my focus solidly on learning to trust my intuition, and the only way to learn to trust myself, my intuition, my knowing, is by listening to it, acting upon it, and being prepared or rather willing to make “mistakes” or take the snaking, scenic route first, till I find the ‘highway’. This is something I am really looking forward too.

As a last thought, I find learning in the strangest, most unexpected places, if I just keep my eyes and ears open. The other day I found this little nugget that’s sticking like glue, in a silly movie called House Bunny. “Kindness is just love with its work boots on.”

I am grateful for this beautiful mystery of life. I am greatful for beautiful guides, bright lighthouses and great hearts, standing by to open shed light on new avenues and possibilities. I am walking into my new chapter with faith, love, enthusiasm and gratitude.

From the heart, I wish all a beautiful, sparkling day! Much love
Charlize