Wow, those curve balls!
Just two days ago, I spoke about finding a willingness in my being that wasn’t there before.
Today I am overwhelmed by emotion and trepidation, coz today my willingness is being tested. The decision I make from this willingness will change my life as I know it. It will take me far away from everything that is familiar, safe and comfortable.
I am beginning to wonder that when we are faced with a decision, if the one that evokes the most fear in our beings, is actually the right one. From what I have learnt these past few months, is that one of my biggest fears is ‘lonliness’, what I have also learnt is that what I need most now is time with myself. To learn the things I will need for the next part of my journey – and right now, the way for me to learn those things is to be taken out of my comfort zone and thrown into the unknown.
I have also discovered that one of the biggest lessons I am busy learning is TRUST. To trust that what the Universe is putting in front of me is for my highest good, and I feel that this is the reason that I am feeling so fearful at this decision. This is a test of my faith. But I am still in charge of making the decision.
I can be brave and make the choice with trust and an open heart, or I can be a coward, and remain stuck where I am now. Stuck... not so much, I DO WANT to be UNSTUCK.
I am no longer the cowardly lion and clicking my heels together three times will not take me back ‘home’, the only thing there is for me to do, is to take this leap in faith and embrace it with gratitude – for it is my opportunity to grow and move forward.
With regards to new designs, when we create a new layout and it is inevitably changed and changed till nothing of the original is left - I used to jokingly infer that this was the tone of our creations. “I LOVE IT! NOW, can we just change everything about it?”
Right now, I love everything about my life… is it now, in this moment that I choose to change it all? To change the creation of my life thus far, till nothing of the original is left, but me?
To not become stuck, to make progress… to grow? It feels that way!
Is it selfish and silly to feel a wave of sadness that I might never see the ‘new’ friends I have made on my journey again, or that there won’t be an opportunity to consolidate those friendships? That I would most likely not see the most important family member in my life for quite some time?
I have spent the last 4 months mostly by myself, and I have found a peace that settled in my bones that has never been there before. Why do I still feel this fear? Is it just because I am afraid of the unknown? Or is it because somewhere I am afraid to trust my Divine guidance?
It is both, so my choice is clear and obvious. I want to TRUST that guidance. It is what sustains me now – and I am working towards a life of trust and faith, without fear impeding my progress.
Wish me love and light as I usher in the new and say grace for all that has been before and love all that is NOW, for now.
Much love and joy
C
Just two days ago, I spoke about finding a willingness in my being that wasn’t there before.
Today I am overwhelmed by emotion and trepidation, coz today my willingness is being tested. The decision I make from this willingness will change my life as I know it. It will take me far away from everything that is familiar, safe and comfortable.
I am beginning to wonder that when we are faced with a decision, if the one that evokes the most fear in our beings, is actually the right one. From what I have learnt these past few months, is that one of my biggest fears is ‘lonliness’, what I have also learnt is that what I need most now is time with myself. To learn the things I will need for the next part of my journey – and right now, the way for me to learn those things is to be taken out of my comfort zone and thrown into the unknown.
I have also discovered that one of the biggest lessons I am busy learning is TRUST. To trust that what the Universe is putting in front of me is for my highest good, and I feel that this is the reason that I am feeling so fearful at this decision. This is a test of my faith. But I am still in charge of making the decision.
I can be brave and make the choice with trust and an open heart, or I can be a coward, and remain stuck where I am now. Stuck... not so much, I DO WANT to be UNSTUCK.
I am no longer the cowardly lion and clicking my heels together three times will not take me back ‘home’, the only thing there is for me to do, is to take this leap in faith and embrace it with gratitude – for it is my opportunity to grow and move forward.
With regards to new designs, when we create a new layout and it is inevitably changed and changed till nothing of the original is left - I used to jokingly infer that this was the tone of our creations. “I LOVE IT! NOW, can we just change everything about it?”
Right now, I love everything about my life… is it now, in this moment that I choose to change it all? To change the creation of my life thus far, till nothing of the original is left, but me?
To not become stuck, to make progress… to grow? It feels that way!
Is it selfish and silly to feel a wave of sadness that I might never see the ‘new’ friends I have made on my journey again, or that there won’t be an opportunity to consolidate those friendships? That I would most likely not see the most important family member in my life for quite some time?
I have spent the last 4 months mostly by myself, and I have found a peace that settled in my bones that has never been there before. Why do I still feel this fear? Is it just because I am afraid of the unknown? Or is it because somewhere I am afraid to trust my Divine guidance?
It is both, so my choice is clear and obvious. I want to TRUST that guidance. It is what sustains me now – and I am working towards a life of trust and faith, without fear impeding my progress.
Wish me love and light as I usher in the new and say grace for all that has been before and love all that is NOW, for now.
Much love and joy
C
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