Find the G-Spot!

What is The G REBELLION?

'Old-Time radio show meets a contemporary woman on a journey towards herself'

Show dates: 18 May, 25 May, 1 June or 8 June 2010

Time: 19:00

Venue: Parker’s Comedy & Jive, Monte Casino

Ticket cost: R150

Bookings: Online at www.parkerscomedy.com or www.computicket.co.za
or at any Computicket outlet

TV presenter and celebrity MC, Bonita Gorrie-Nuttall, a.k.a Bonita G, brings you The G-Rebellion. Her scintillating one-woman show uses an upbeat, old-time radio show ‘The G-Spot’ as a theme to launch this “feel-good” exploration of what it takes for us to experience ourselves as “Good Enough” at work, at home and at play.

Drawing on personal experience as a Presenter for Carte Blanche, Bonita G presents a rebelliously good take on more mindful, more satisfying and more joyful living.

In a downright refreshing and sexy way, Bonita G sweeps us up in the possibility of our place in a more authentic and positive, more empowered and accountable South Africa.

The G-Rebellion will feature Tuesday nights for a limited season only before taking to the road on a national tour. Tickets must be pre-booked.

Come and experience it!

Contact

Charlize Matthee
Tel: +27 82-782-2202
E-mail: charlize@bonitag.co.za

WAR!!! WHAT IS IT GOOD FOR?

I have found the last 2 weeks to be two of the most challenging weeks I have experienced in such a long time, and during these two weeks, I have really been challenged with the feeling of being/feeling stuck, like there is no motion whatsoever – not forward or even backwards. Like a “Dead” Zone.

For me, there is no feeling worse in this world that experiencing that frustrating motionlessness. It kinda feels like I have been shrink-wrapped and vacuum-sealed – from head to toe… emotionally, mentally, at times spiritually and on occasion even physically.

Now, I duly recognise, this is just another phase in the cycle of my life, but still, these phases have the ability to bring out some really interesting things. One of these things, that were really noticeable for me, in this past week, had been the dramatic increase in the war between my innermost, opposite parts.

The part where my most unshakable FAITH resides - pitted against a raging torrent of DOUBT, my EGO against my deepest sense of SELF - literally leaving me feeling “beside” My SELF, a gagged and bound witness to this war.

This has left me feeling bewildered, defenceless and indescribably displaced in the face of its ferocity and in its ability to keep me locked in the same “spot” for its full duration thus far.

I have been taught that when a certain emotion lingers, to just surrender to it, feel it and allow it to be, because all it wants is just the opportunity to exist and to be acknowledged. Generally, this would bring about some sense of movement – whether it’s backward or forward, but there’s movement.

This time though, it has just raged on, without restraint. No amount of allowing, feeling and surrendering seemed to lead any some sort of reconciliatory conclusion.

But out of nowhere, suddenly, today there seemed to be just the teeniest, tiniest feeling of motion. Has the headlock been broken? Tomorrow will reveal more, for now, I am just grateful, it feels as if out of nowhere, my sense of faith and self, seemed to edge itself into a position of advantage.

Is this how a phase of endings conclude and will this minute advantage lead me back towards the centre of my being, with a valuable lesson and platform to launch from anew?

Namaste!

Love and light
Charlize

SMOKE AND MIRRORS - BATTLES AND VICTORIES

Tomorrow will mark an anniversary of the most special experience of love I have ever had. Eight months ago, I met someone who has changed my life in ways that cannot be described. That person is me.

A couple of days ago a friend told me to just take time to acknowledge how far I have come – and in doing that, I have come to some amazing and profound realisations.

I have realised that I really have come a long way down the path of SELF love. A mysterious journey that began in July last year, has been unfolding, completely unnoticed by me, into a gift of love that I have been withholding from myself since childhood.

I have spent the last 13 years looking for love in all the wrong places. Falling in love with people's potential, rather than who they really were – a great disservice to them and myself. It left me devastated, hurt and lost on more than one occasion and left me feeling worthless and insignificant nearly all that time. But somewhere inside me there was also a very quiet, very distant voice that kept telling me that I deserved to be loved.

It took many years and many heartbreaks to finally start listening to that voice – to find the way to adjust the volume of that voice to a more audible level. It took a lot of self-investigation, not always easy, and it took just 1 hour of my time per day. And in that time I was gifted with the most amazing group of people who had consciously and unconsciously contributed to my healing and growth. I thank Great Spirit for those people immensely. Without their valuable contribution of love, support, encouragement and care, I may not have found the courage and strength hiding behind my deepest fears.

So as I realised about falling in love with people’s potential and pondering it for a few hours and talking to some about it, it made me realise that maybe that was one of the reasons I had found it so hard to love my SELF. If all people in our lives are our mirrors to learn and grow from… and the Universe does not give us anything that we are not putting out there first… they must have been attracted by me, because I always felt that IF ONLY I could be like this, or like that, then I could love myself more.

By taking that time to acknowledge my journey over the last 8 months, I realised with great astonishment today. I ACTUALLY DO love the person I AM right NOW. And that makes EVERYTHING ok. I also realised that even though so much of the externals have changed, not all that much of the old me that started out on this path has changed. Inside, I STILL AM THAT girl who nervously and quite frankly, terrified, walked into a Life Process one Thursday evening, wondering why I should and if I could do this. The only difference today is that I NOW allow myself to just BE that girl anyways, no matter where or with whom I am. And all I did was to slowly dig away at all the barriers I have surrounded her with – to slowly start exposing more and more of her to the light and to the world.

Having made this discovery, it opened up yet another door, locked tightly by my subconscious - a question that has been unanswered for years. Why do so many people on some occasions not honour their commitments and agreements with me? The clear answer from the mirror came today and bitch slapped me so hard across the face it left me reeling – because on some occasions, I do not honour my commitments and agreements to my SELF. It’s the worst thing one can do, breaking agreements with ourselves, coz it indicates lack of respect for some part of the self. This is only one of the little things the EGO needs to hold us ransom, sometimes our entire lives.

These realisations has led to a violent battle raging between my EGO and my SELF during this day. Somewhere over the last few days an aspect of me has started recognising and slowly revealing things to my conscious mind, things that I have suppressed for a very long time, that had kept me in a state of misery for a long time. But I'll tell you one thing, the ego is very, very sharp... it took a nanosecond to start retalliating with viscious intent, to regain the ground it perceived to have lost.

Finally, it seems that the battle is more fair... that I have somehow been privvy to one of the cards ego held up its sleeve. Having obtained the power this awareness brings now allows me to create some semblance of balance and harmony between my dual aspects of self. GAME ON!!! :)

Awareness truly is our greatest weapon against the ego part of self. Let’s start using it to create harmony, balance and peace between our dual selves - to “become the change we want to see in the world”, and so bring harmony, balance and peace to our external environment.

Have a phenomenal day and know that YOU are the most important person in this Universe, without you, nothing in this space and time will be exactly as it is now.

Namaste!!!

Love,
Charlize

Deep healing

This is certainly not something I ever anticipated writing about. However, it has had a profound impact on my being, and definitely worth sharing.

Some 6 years ago, I converted from an anti-Trekkie to a self-proclaimed Trekkie, and no shame in admitting to that. I could at this stage care less about the ridiculing of people who are Star Trek fans. My question is this... "How can we judge or ridicule ANYTHING, another person finds inspiration or even comfort in?" It took this particular brand to open my eyes to my own narrow-mindedness. For I was once one of those, who giggled and snickered when I heard someone is a Trek fan.

Though the details of how this came to be is hardly, really relevant, what is relevant is that the ideology of Gene Roddenbury - the creator of Star Trek, is in absolute alignment with my own. He harbored ideals for peace, harmony and tolerance on earth, between nations and all mankind.

This of course, is also hardly the point. The point of this blog is that in some inexplicable way, I have found that a deep part of my being was healed. A part that has somehow unleashed a previously non-existant confidence from within. :)

Three weeks ago, I was in the video store, and when I saw the cover, I felt the urge to watch the latest offering of Star Trek. Now, in recent months, I have learnt to start listening to the subtle urges of my being. So I rented it. A great friend and fellow Trekkie phoned about an hour later, wanting to stop by for a visit. Naturally, that was my confirmation that I trusted my intuition.

Finally, when we were right about in the middle of the movie, they introduced an older version of that pointy-eared guy that fascinated all who saw him for the first time - Mr Spock. And to my total surprise, it was Mr Leonard Nimoy. THE original, the one and only Mr Spock himself. I cannot explain exactly what happened to me, because I have not the slightest clue. And for three weeks I have been trying to understand what had happened, till today... when I decided to just ACCEPT.

When I recognised him, something deep within was stimulated, and when he started speaking I started weeping, the sound of his voice unlocked such deep buried emotion, that it took about three hours to regain some measure of my composure. All the while, I was flooded with memories of sitting in front of the tele, with the whole family around 6pm week after week to watch the next installment of Captain Kirk and Mr Spock's adventures. Maybe it was the memory of my family being whole, maybe it was the memory of my dad being an active participant in my life at the time... who knows? It was just all too much to comprehend. But the feeling that still remains, is the feeling of a deep healing that took place within. The pursuit of healing my being and feeling whole within myself, not trying to find the completion of my being with another person, has been my one quest over the last 6 odd months. And this has contributed greatly to filling that devastating emptiness I have felt my entire life.

So whether I try to keep understanding what happened, or just accept that it did happen. It has happened and it has made me infinitely more whole than I was before the experience. This is something I will ACCEPT in great magnificent amounts of gratitude.

It also made me aware of something that has confounded me all my life. The effect certain voices always had on my being. Who can say that they have not been affected by the power of James Earl Jones' voice, then there has been two additional others that have a profound effect on my being, when I hear their voices - something in it makes me come alive to the mystery and inspires me - Sean Connery and Kate Mulgrew (another Star Trek Captain herself).

Some things in life are just inexplicable, but it certainly does not mean that we should not pay attention to the way it makes us feel. I recently read that when we experience deep joyous emotion, it simply means that we are in vibrational harmony or alignment with the intent of our Inner Being. That is how our inner being communicates with us.

It's amazing how we can experience healing in the most unexpected and strangest places. Find those things that bring you joy. Joy, begets joy. This is my pursuit... JOY. For when we experience joy, we feel utterly FREE.

Namaste,
and deep healing and love to all
Charlize

2010: Spreading love and enlightenment

Heya all it's been a while, I know... but a lot has been happening over the last couple of weeks.

Though, first things first. I trust you all had a blessed festive season and that you had the most amazing Blue Moon New Year's Celebration with your loved ones.

As I have aluded to in previous posts about the immense changes that I have been experiencing, I wanted to share some of them with you.

With regards to work prospects, I was looking at a positive transfer to Cape Town within the company, however, the situation changed within days of my application and with some severe introspection, deliberation and negotiation, I ended up taking voluntary retrenchment. Now I know that it sounds a bit cuckoo, but I believe that it was what was supposed to happen. It was the path of least resistance and my life was naturally flowing to this point.

I dunno about you, but when the time comes for me to be "MOVED" in this world, my being starts objecting in ways that I have now come to recognise as nothing other than pure resistance, disharmony and discord. When I start feeling these restless protestations in my being, the first thing I used to do was to ignore it, suppress it for as long as I could, inevitably contributing and prolonging my unhappiness. Which I have also realised is exactly the WRONG thing to do. When our beings speak, we need to start listening immediately to what it is asking. Is it asking us to change or to move?

In this case, my being was, not at all mildly, SCREAMING out for me to change AND to move. Loudly making known it's desire to start spreading love and light. The same kind of love and light that I have received, in particular over the last 6 months. First off, I had no idea what I was going to do, I only knew that it was going to require a complete career change. So after a lot of introspection and some investigation into what I truly wanted, I had finally decided on a course of action.

I am now promoting, marketing and booking to three individuals who have invested a great deal of their personal time and energy in my spiritual growth and personal development.

I figured, if they could teach me to access my own self-belief, faith and confidence to start a whole new self-employed career within 6 months, can you imagine what they could do for you. I think that spreading their talents as far as possible is a way for me to connect others to their own pursuit of happiness. My way of spreading love and light?

The first individual started my off on my journey of awareness about 10 years ago, she is now a business life coach. Who is tutoring me to grow and expand myself in the area of business, to excell at running a business in ways that are seated in spirituality.

The second individual opened my eyes to the reality and realm of spirit, the connectedness of all life and my own unique contribution to this planet when I attended her LIFE PROCESS and DIVINE GUIDANCE course. A woman so wise and committed to spreading the light... to assist each of us to embark on our own personal journey of power, joy, love, peace and abundance. A journey of discoving the keys to open doors and create opportunities, your personal truth and the magnificent, glorious gift you are to this Universe and it's inhabitants.

The third individual assisted at the LIFE PROCESS and over the last 6 months, has been a true source of inspiration, motivation and encouragement to stay committed to this new path. She led by example and her light shines brightly like a beacon of hope. She has created and launched the most entertaining motivational talk ever (The G-Rebellion) in December, and with it, she is providing many individuals with addtional tools to better their lives right now. A talk that ties in closely with with the tools learned in LIFE PROCESS. Tools to enhance and maintain your journey of light.

Should any of you be interested in embracing change and uncover the personal "power" of creating a life of abundance and joy, filled with the love and light of the Universe/God for yourself with unlimited potential. Contact me via comment on this blog, or find me on Facebook (Charlize Matthee), or find The-G-Rebellion on Facebook.

I am now personally committed to spreading love and light, in the manner I was guided to. It's been a magical and wondrous journey of liberation and love.

Namaste Fellow Journeyers.

We are all so very important... it's time we start investing in ourselves.

All my love,
Charlize